WE'VE GOT THE MUSIC...

 I'm always up too late.  I stay up because I dread the morning.  If I could I would probably stay in today forever.  New days mean new days at work.  New days to screw up and feel useless because I just can't get used to the daily routine of Wendy's.  I always forget something.  I've only been there for about two weeks but it seems like they expect me to know it all by now.  

And I'm sick of my parents.  They just don't get it.  I'm so excited about CMC I could practically explode.  But all my dad thinks about is the fact that it's fourteen hours away.  He refuses to try to see it through my eyes and be proud of me for getting in and be happy for me that for the first time in my life I feel like I'm going to be doing what I was meant to do.  

And all my mom can say is "You have my support, do you need his too?"
They're supposed to be my PARENTS. BOTH of them.  Even if that wasn't a completely ludicrous comment for that reason it would be a false statement because I don't really have her support.  She's been trying to push different careers on me this whole entire time because she doesn't really believe I can do this.  She doesn't think I can find a job in the music industry.

I guess I have to believe in myself enough for three people...

I can't ever seem to get to bed on time anymore.  But I'm not taking naps during the day either.  I guess I'm some sort of freak of nature that can exist on insanely small amounts of sleep.  

Anyway, I'm trying to figure out what to do with my life...but what else is new?  I've recently decided that English is probably not at all related to what I'm going to do in life.  I used to love the idea of being a published author and I wrote stories all the time (although I rarely finished them to be completely honest).  Now all I can think about is how the heck I'm going to get my foot in the door of the mainstream music industry and make a change in the music scene.

  I just really feel like it's so important for our generation and the generations to follow that we have good music so that we can look back like our parents have on bands like Pink Floyd and Tom Petty and the Heartbreakers and say "they really changed music for the better" or "they really affected people." 

I think our generation is screaming out to be affected and today's music industry is ignoring the people who could really answer that cry.  We've lost our passion for music.  People aren't moved to tears anymore by guitar solos.  Because musicians don't play guitar with passion anymore.  Because the music industry isn't looking for passion.  They're looking for an artist with enough sex appeal that can sell a couple million records solely because of their looks and maybe a catchy hook or two.  The quick buck is the goal.

Anyway, that's the end of tonight's rant.  I'm exhausted and I'm going to bed!